SimplyDeii:)
| 19 years young
| born again christian
| I think random
| Weird? Nah... Just limited edition
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I’m Growing Old
I’m sick… And that made me realize things…
Yesterday, late afternoon, I was feeling terribly bad. Muscle pain… headache… dizzy… sore throat… Couldn’t even stand and walk properly. My temperature reached to 39.2. And I was hoping to get a check up soon so the doctor could provide the right meds for me to take up. And so I asked my mom if we could go to the hospital to have a check up… She said no… These were the exact words she told me “check up? Malaki ka na… Mag pahinga ka jan.” well she said lotsa thing pero ayan lang ang nag register sa utak ko dahil sobrang lutang ako.
That noon, on my way home (from school), I sent my mom a text message, asking her if she could buy me a watermelon, cause I’m craving for one (and I couldn’t eat properly since my throat is hurting). She said no.
That early morning, before I go to school, I was lying on the couch, resting, when she asked me to call someone using her phone. Asked her to hand over to me her phone dahil hindi nga ako okay nung Sunday evening pa. Again… She said no. “Tumayo ka na jan, kunin mo na. Para namang ano to… Malaki ka na e…” And so I did.
Again, I’m not here to brag about me getting sick, nor to tell you guys that my mom wasn’t caring. I know she did, she does. She loves me. I know. I can feel it. What I realized just few hours ago is that… “Malaki na ako.”
Yes… I’m growing up and I’m growing old.
“Iba na pala ngayon”, the last thing I told myself before falling asleep last night. Iba na nga.
Yesterday is far different from today. Before, whenever I get sick, I can have all the food I want to eat. :)) mom checks up on me time to time to see if I’m getting any better or not. Gumigising pa sya late at night para punasan ako ng towel soaked in iced cold water. Nagtitimpla pa ng calamansi juice for my sore throat. Laging may pasalubong para daw gumaling ako agad.
OH… I MISS… :’(
And soon… I’ll be graduating. I’ll be leaving home. I’ll be living alone for sometime. Thinking about it makes me miss everything already :’(
Nakakamiss din talaga ang alaga ng isang INA.
“Sana, every time na magkakasakit ako, babalik nalang ako Sa pagkabata” I told myself.
Yes, I miss everything. The way she takes care of me before. Everything… But I have to accept the fact that I am growing old. I’ll have to take care of myself. I’ll have to be independent. I need to grow up.
Thanks mom! For teaching me how to be brave in times of darkness, for telling me to pray whenever I get scared, for sharing to me the things you think I need to know, for teaching me the things I have to learn. Thank you for your love and for your care. I love you mom! I maybe growing older and things may be changing, but, mom, I love you, and that will never change :’)
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